Sometimes ur dreams do get larger than ur Life......!!!!

they say everyone has some dreams in life oderwise one cannot live....their life will probably have nothing to believe in...nothing to look 4ward to....but wat is one supposed to do when they have just one dream in their life and that oneday lies infront of their eyes shattered into a zillion pieces....shud they stop believing....shud they blame themselves....or their fate....or God...or maybe just cry and cry and cry....like there is no end to tears!!wat is the right thing to do??even after years have passed since that dream has ended...!!!!who ever says that time heals everything...u forget things....and all that....is talking nothing but bull shit....sometimes one particular dream or maybe one particular thing gets bigger than ur life also....it just gets bigger than everything..and when that ends there is really no hard way to get over it...it will remain there 4ever...its a continuous struggle with urself every single day...and loosing in the same...and after all the time it just makes u realise no matter what, u cant win against ur fate...and its so hard to make urself understand...this is the reality...u can wear a thousand masks infront of others but deep down inside u have those eyes and that heart that cry and talk about its pain every single moment to itself....but still it hopes that maybe someday this pain will be lessened...that someday God will forgive it....someday some miracle will happen and maybe it will forget and forgive everything...but the curse of living with a broken dream just doesnt go...it lives with u in the form of ur anger,irritation....and all these lead to ur not forgiving urself

My Life is My Biggest Teacher.....My Greatest Strength

I owe a lot to my life....it has given me everithng....it has made me da person tht i'm today....it has taught me to be tough nd not to expect.....as expectations kill !!!!it sucks but then also i love my life....



I used to be ths grl who used to think tht ppl around r wonderful....they do care....but wth tym i realized how stupid i was....i was tryn to judge ppl da i way i feel....am hpy i hv met such ppl in my life....who hv been mere disappointments....they hv taught me to be patient in knowing someone....not to trust ppl easily...had i only be surrounded by nice ppl i wud hv never knwon ths world....never known how it feels to be dumped....to be back stabbed....life still goes on but u do realize tht u hv turned into a btr person....a more confident soul....but some part of u dies....some part of mine is also dead....i know 4 a mtter a fact tht i hv lost da ability to love unconditionally....to feel any emotion...sometimes i feel i live da life of pretence....but am jst fine wth it....atleast i dont get hurt....nd onething i firmly believe....one cud never or shud never say tht i hv had enuf....nothing more bad can happen to me.....its trash !!!!whn u think tht u hv been thru da worse....well hold on da worst is yet to come....but yes u r prepared for it....



Iam not been pessimistic here....ths is wat i feel.....jst live ur life....njoy it....love it....hope as much as u can....but donot expect much.....it hurts u.....i hv lost a grt part of my soul sumwhr but am hpy wth da rest....i see things wth a more matured perception now....am not easily affected wth things around....thts wat my life has taught me nd am hpy abt it....my life is perfect according to me now nd i dont care wht ppl say or think....nd yes 1 self-realization.....nobody can care 4 u da way u can care abt urself.....remember ths...nd life wud be easy :) cheers !!!!!!

Am I Feminist???well yes...maybe

today a very good friend of mine came to my house and we were having a very interesting discussion....well this is one topic which am sure every girl at some point discusses...we were discussing marriage and a girl's life after that...yea u got it right!we were talking about some bloody MCP's who think that girl's should get into sarees soon after they are married and devote their life to them and their families...oh!god i hate such men who want their wives to sacrifice their wishes for da sake of his so called ego....what my point is- is da girl only getting married??da boy according to me i also getting married...so y is it always expected from da girl to leave her house whr she was born...whr she has her room,her own bed??well u will say tats how it works...fine i agree...but da boy will live in his own house,in his own room and offcourse with his parents and will expect his wife to think of his parents as her own...i can never agree on this point...both of them are enetring into a new life so they shud start their own family and compromise and adjustments should be from both sides..not from da girl only...da guy shud also take into her likings and dislikings.

well my friend is engaged nd her boyfriend like every other guy wants her to live with his parents after they get married and take in to their lifestyle...its always expected from da girls to forget her own family, her parents,all that she ever wanted in life till she got married offcourse and give in to her goddamn responsibilities as a wife,daughter-in-law and a mother..phew!!and till now in India in-laws specially mom-in-laws dont really feel their daughters-in-law as their daughters...but these men who have these idea that their parents are da best anyone can have leave their wives in da hands of such mum-in-law or better monster-in-law...lol...whether love marriage or arrange marriage hardly u will get to see a boy going against his mom for da sake of his wife no matter how wrong his mom is...am not saying all in-laws are bad and tat they are sheer terror but da numbers are no less also

but whatever it is i truely feel marriage is a life changing thing and this is applicable for both da boy and da girl so adjustments should be from both sides and all you girls marry a man and not a mam's boy who always ends up in his mam's lap nd lacks da courage to stand for his love....

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now today am feeling so weird tat i cant even think of a name for my blog....actually my mind is feeling like da way i have written da title of da blog....me nd my mood swings!!!!!since morning only it has been a very dull day with nothing much to do...i have been sitting infront of da tv nd computer simultenously for quite sometime....this is da fourth time in da day i have logged in nd is constantly shuffling b/w my orkut and facebook acounts....maybe tis is wat u call jobless....however da no of scraps in both my accounts are da same nd not a single frnd is online on g-talk also wth whom i can chat adding more to my irritation....bt honestly i dont wanna chat also...now tats me talking absolute nonsense...am feeling lost nd confused...even sleeping is no longer a good option for me having considered da fact tat today i slept till 11.30 am...thought maybe blogging wud be of some help but while writing now i am realizing tat it is also of no good....i guess da day is bad in itself...when nothing really is coming to my help....too much of free time really can make u sick but i dont even want to work...y do ppl feel bore???well am asking stupid questions...if u dont have any work u got to feel bore...bt den y dont i have any work?????

still searching for da answer......................

my first blog ever....!!!!

today i finally started to blog...i donno y am doing this and i also dont know what exactly to write but i have always been interested to try something new...something which is like da talk of da town for da moment....everyone now form MR.AMITABH BACHCHAN to any common man is blogging....so i thought why will i be left out....and am sure most of da ppl who blog are not reali aware of what tey are doing....so yea big deal!!!!now i live in kolkata,india nd having lived here for da lst 20 yrs all i can say is tis is da bst city to live in...no matter how much pollution is here...no matter how da ppl donot follow da traffic rules...nd not to forget da hawkers who are responsible for an everyday tsunami near gariahat....trust me when say this...bt tey are getting richer with every passing second by fooling ppl wth their offerings...what tey dont kno is tat tey are already fools or else tey wudnt have come to them in da first place knowing fully well tat da things tey are buying from tem wont even last maybe a fortnight...bt what da hell i kno for a fact tat da hawkers are now more richer dan me...tey have enuf money to spend nd eat all da roadside stuff during da pujas...i dont even have tat much money....being da popper tat i am...even roadside food seems so costly....6 more days for our DURGA PUJA da biggest festival of benagl and all i can think of now is how much money i will be needing and also how will i be asking mom for it as today morning only i had a fight with her.....i hate my anger...always comes at da wrong moment....gawd help me...



i kno maybe i have written all crap...bt as tis is my first blog i hope all da readers wont discard me...if u wanna laugh after reading tis well u have every right to do so....i kno its all very silly....my second blog will be better i guess....will write on something i reali love........